Wednesday, 16 July 2008

I'm struggling

OK I'm really struggling now

We have all decided to do a practical session tonight and everyone is to come with a starting point- a handbag/ bucket full of bits and bobs and something they want to chase.

I am stumped- I feel completely confused- not afraid just
A whirl of stuff going round in my head- how do I marshal my thoughts. I try and focus on one idea- the investigation of a bucket of water- thinking about women who have just that bucket of water and make it last- do all that you need water to do in a day.
Then that doesn't feel very open...

Then I think about "Life Expectancy"- the idea for a show about what we thought life was going to hand us and what has happened (so essentially a show about managing disappointment and learning to celebrate) and then that sounds like middle class Western luxurious whinging.
How dare I when other women's lives area daily battle for survival, for sanity and safety.
Oh stuff maybe it has to be the bucket of water. Go for the first thought- the trivial or seemingly trivial- but open enough to let us go somewhere with it.

What will everyone else come with....crikey moses this is about the most exciting it gets- I have to remember to enjoy it!

7 comments:

cath said...

how did it go then...tell me all about it. Sorry again for not making it - would have loved it!!
cx

Eleanor said...

Wow I enjoyed last night, have posted some pics on flickr, here:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/26212687@N03/

E. x

Céline Siani Djiakoua said...

Thanks Eleanor ! Unfortunately I had to rush off and didn't get to see the end of the session but your photos are very helpful and really good ! Lov them !:)

Celine

Céline Siani Djiakoua said...

Me again .... Organisation problems ... I wanted to make comments on Eleanor's photos in Flikr but I thought it may get messy and hard to link it to everyone ? Or shall I just leave a message here to let everybody know that I made comments somewhere else (on Eleanor's flikr) ?

... virtual worlds .... I love it but it's getting a bit crazy : I've already got 2 blogs so far and I'm about to create a new one for that project !!!! Shall I ?? ... dunno ...

Anyway, you can already have a look at my public blog :
http://celinesianidjiakoua.blogspot.com/
I will try to add some kind of porte folio there as Lisa asked me if I had brought it yesterday ...

Céline Siani Djiakoua said...

Well, I've done it ! Here is a new blog of mine !

http://thesecrazywomen.blogspot.com/

It should make my life easier ... :)

Eleanor said...

Thanks for your comments Celine and all the other thought-provoking/inspiring stuff.

We could all post pics on here in future - Susan I think you'd have to invite us to be co-editors or some such or we could send them to you to upload (potentially a bit of an arse for you) unless there's some other way I don't know about. But maybe you'd rather keep this as your space rather than a free-for-all. Maybe it would be better for us all to set up our own blogs...?

I keep having extended daydreams about all the things I'd like to bring into this project. I thought I'd like to try building a biggish pinhole camera to photograph deb's sewing machine. It would mean makeshifting a darkroom somewhere at the barracks, maybe the loo, don't know if that would be possible?

Another (more hazy) thing I keep thinking about, maybe cos of another project I've been working on, is what about women who aren't like us/you all?

I'm thinking particularly about young women who live in Stoke and aren't so confident/
articulate/well educated/strong-minded and who don't know women who are from their own lives. I can't help thinking you are the women I wish I'd known when I was at school...

Could they fit in at some stage? Maybe it would come later?

E. x

Dark Flea said...

Eleanor, I think that what you are thinking about...young women is very relevant, but that we as a group should take it slowly....my experience of the Magdalena festival in Wellington was that "younger wome" whatever that means, found a way into the work via workshops and by seeing pieces of work....at the moment we don't have any of these, although we, individually do.....so what am I saying, yeah later but not too much later